this is one of my first times touching html, so don't expect this 2 b perfect. Anyways. Today, 11/02/2026 my class and another one, two years below me, went to an excursion were many others school went as well: it was an expo. A girl asked me for my social media, I gave it to her but I'm gay and I like boys soo... sorry, I think? however. later I was with a group of people of my class; waiting to do an activity (we were asignatedd to it ramdonly: I had no close people to talk to) and a young boy of my school came and did the joke of "hey my friend likes you": he pointed a chuby boy I'm 100% secure he didn't know and before I could give a proper asnwer he ran away with his friends (I just told him something like "what?", THE SITUATION WAS A.W.K.W.A.R.D). The chuby guy was, certainly, looking at me in some strange way: but not strange in a "hey sexy boy way", more like if he was CONFUSED AS HELL: I think the younger boys told him the exact same joke as they did to me, just pointing me instead of him. My clasmates then asked me what happened while I was standing there, confused. When I told them what hapened I said what happened, but I were a little bit disrepctfull with the chuby boy, bcz I imitated the way he was looking at me. I was scared - not because of him, but because of the younger boys - and I acted like an ashole. If you ever read this, I'm sorry ramdom guy.
hellooo :p I have been procastinating writting for a couple days, but however here I am now: so the Friday I danced with three friends - actuating-, I finished one important assignement (It ended up well, not the way I imagined but I'm happy with the result) and I went out with my friends, but two of them touched a delicate theme and I spent two hours disociating (I picked up my phone to help me distract myself and I was literally just scrolling and starring at the screen: I wasn't thinking at all. Sometimes I heard them talking and I listened for a bit: I'll talk about it bc one girl said something...), however while that there was a moment when I heard a girl saying "everyone in this room is a girl,me, name 1, name 2, name 3, and key" (not my real name btw) then one of the girls that said the thing that made me pick up my phone told her that I was a man and that she should avoid those jokes. I don't remmenber more of that conversation. It OF COURSE bothered me, like SHUT UP I'M NOT A FREAKING GIRL, SHUT YOUR 4SS MOUTH UP PLEASE. anyways, today I'm going to party with them, I'll tell you later what happens
Have I promised 2 myself 2 write here everyday? yes. Am I doing it? no. Hello guys, it's aurum (I am going 2 refer 2 myself in various ways bc I like it, not because i have TID: wich I don't have, but because I like it, and I'm really familiar with refering 2 myself on a especific nickname and now using others feels kinda weird? idk. most of people call me a especific nickname and now my real name is only used by my theathers, basically). However, I got kinda drunk on valentines day and I don't recomend it. I was like a gray out, and honestly, as someone that usually ends up in a black out I'm proud of having a little bit more of self-control, I still have 2 improve but however. I kissed 2 friends of mine, and I feel kinda nasty (not in a good way), but also nasty (in a good way). the next day I went with my dad to a coffe. he has no idea of what I did, i feel bad having 2 hide this kind of things. the next day I went out with I friend that doesn't belong 2 my main group, however I really like her (as friends obv). That day a friend of mine that its on the main group (well, yesterday them leaved the chat group, they do it sometimes), also my brother went 2 the hang out, it was chill and bringed me back some old memories of the old group. people change a lot, and your own situation can flip totally in just 3 months: from walking all day long 2 espending your day on your friend's house and idk. back 2 the main theme, the next day I went out with the main group and two girls broke up: one of them is on the group chat (she has been there like a month?) and the other no, but I think both of them are really sweet and good people, even if the situation was... like wtf (the girl who decided to break up was still after her ex gf or something like that, and I think that it was the reason why she broke up with who it was her current gf). We also drank a bit that day, but just wine and cocacola, and not too much, like two glasses each person. Yestearday we hang out, wow another day hanging out (I go to hang outs almost every day wow...!) (well the days I have school I hang out less but... idk), and who I think its the leader of the group didn't go out that day, so I was a little bit nervous, but it ended up well: I met a guy, friend of one of my friends that was dressed up as a woman bc of a challenge, but then one of my closest friends told me to hang out and when I asked if she could come the guy said "no", so It was kinda awkard (it's not his fault, obv, I would act the same if I was dressed up as a woman). However, later that day he left us and my friend finally joined us: so me, bro, friend 1 and friend 2 were walking torught the streets and it was one of the first hang outs since months were we go for a walk (hang outs w the main group, may I have 2 admit that it has changed lately: many new people joined. It always happens in spring, or when spring is going 2 starts, or the first summer months. when days are growing, I feel like it is kinda poethic ngl), then friend 3 (the girl that just had a broke up the other day) joined us and we keept walking until we just sat down on a park. It was a nice day. Honestly, I prefer hang outs where we walk. Today nothing interesting happened except that in school one girl (some kind of school friend) asked me for tobacco but I just ran out of it todays morning, I have to go to the store. I also having been gosthing a couple of online friends but I don't have the energy 2 talk 2 them, and I feel bad bc I treated bad one of my closest friends.
A loot of things happened since the last time I wrote. Basically, I feel like if everyone wants 2 ridiculize me. it's shit. also, me and some school friends went to a pasta buffet, I ate so much I almost exploded.